Finding a starting point

Upon searching for information and postings about some of the metaphysical subjects that I have bunched together in a system of definitive logic I realized that there isn't really anyone who has made such extensive connections. Of course there are countless theories or how space, time, and matter function, yet all seem to have trouble bridging the gap between subject and object. I'm simply stating the process that lead to me wanting to compile this writing, surely this is a lot I did not find or read and have yet to investigate.
The point is that in order to start discussing what I've come to know as the realms of Absolute Logic there is just so much information behind each word, concept, and truth. Of course I have to start somewhere, and for some time this starting point has troubled me. My first idea is that a foundation must be built so that the individual may find their own logic by relating to my own. In order to do this inner truth must be established, and then a process of narrowing down a multitude of subjects to core fundamentals. This alone proved to be a monumental task, for I don't know how to teach what I've learned, what I have learned has come from eleven years of cause and effect. I built structures of belief, refined them, and the people and circumstances of my life opened up more and more insight.
Now here I am with what feels like a simple awareness and complete concept of not only existence, but creation as well, and yet there is so much difficulty in actually expressing such. Paradox seems to be wrapped around any subject concerning metaphysics, for each individual has their own subconscious definition of every word they have ever encountered. Dialect isn't just a matter of agreeing on definitions, how we communicate Absolute Logic creates paradox alone. For truth can only exist independently, a self-confirming and creating process of comprehension is how we each maintain our perception.
On top of this constantly readjusting system of awareness that gives shape to consciousness is a infallible structure, of which we can only transcend, not change. Perhaps "under" is a better preposition, for we have come out of this original design and have evolved with a specific potential as our goal. This goal is the exponential growth of creation, the reproduction of universes, a manner for copying the original design and yet not hindering a new degree of consciousness to ascend from that where the intersection lay.
I came about this realization in quite the unique way, just as my initial inquiry into the workings of life began. In fact when I reached a certain point of understanding I seemed to encounter a monumental flop in my mind and in reality around me. This is a story in itself, and I am currently writing it in my other blog "A kundalini experience". Trying to share the experience of how deep insight was actually observed in my quite normal life is for me an immense project. As I said before, everything has subtle context that without defining leaves that content floating in a mystical world.
Belief is a wonderful point of reference for metaphysics, even physics for that matter. As soon as I establish what my idea of belief is, how such works, and what is the quanta of such, then I have to turn right back around and go into inner truth. Everything has to come from within ones own comprehension, or I am just making a record of observations without any foundation for practical application. That is truly my purpose, to create practical application out of deep fundamental understanding. Creating meaning in ones life is quite simple, follow what inspires you, what brings you peace or happiness, yet for some people this just isn't enough anymore.
For me peace wasn't enough, I sought happiness, found the principle of balance and then derived from that a nearly unbreakable peace. Yet what good is existing in contentment within a world where confusion and disarray seems to be leading most others into frivolous expenditures of a life journey? How can one be enlightened or transcended from normal reality without observing what is actually happening?
This is in part how I look at the story of Buddha, where at first he abandoned all his attachments, saw the unfathomable structure of creation, came back to spread the news, and then simply went back into meditation and disappeared. What else was there for him to do but transcend reality and create his own? One can only go so far into the workings of creation without reaching a peak of understanding and therefore creating their own point of reference or universe. He just may have saw how in all of time there is only one course, and he was existing in a time where that course was still far from resolving. We don't resolve to zero by the way, we resolve to create exponents.
This all relates quite closely to Jesus and his lingo as well, yet there is certainly much to say before all of that is delved into. The idea is that there is no perfect starting point for discussing the Absolute, the energy body of all things or the intelligent process of Nature in resolution. There will always be another step backwards, all the way to the point where the unknown lay. There will always be an unknown, a vast weaving of mystery that connects and motivates truth and knowledge. The source of creation is everything, and how that everything works into the finite world of our observation is out of our reach.
Accepting the unknown is an important aspect of understanding or comprehending the workings of existence. This is an idea that may not fly everywhere, but religion is founded upon that which cannot be proved just as science is eternally based on myth as well. Having a portion that is incomprehensible doesn't invalidate the logic of what is brought into awareness, for there must be balance. Force instance we can see the basic structure of energy that is a pencil, but we cannot know the future of how that energy will resolve. Using the same example, we cannot know all of the intricacies of how that pencil came to be, we can use logic to have a very good idea, but there is always going to be an amount of that pencil's being that is unknown. This is the same for life, we can know how creation happens, but we cannot know from whence creation was conceived. We can know the values that make up this specific life journey, but we may never know how those values were originally set in motion beyond the logic of such.
This concept alone was a catalyst for many realizations to follow, I finally had let possibility become a finite property of inquisition into existence. This may have come from the idea of potential energy, how each thing resolves, what could be contained within each objective thing in the universe is mystery. Potential brings everything to life, and where I see potential is in everything. Possibility doesn't exist as a question mark, possibility exists as potential energy which may or may not be reached. A question is many possiblities, the answer of any question rests as truth within each person, sometimes we just don't have an answer. This shouldn't deter us from questioning.
Finding a starting point, oh, there are so many! Every topic seems to unfold into so many more, and although they each have a frame of reference in my lifetime they are each also preceded by a reference which might be in the realm of possibility. In my DNA there is knowledge both conscious and subconscious, same goes for my brain. Everything seems to have a memory, and a potential, this is what I have come to call a pattern of energy, or a belief. Nature was initiated with a specific pattern of belief that set in motion everything else to follow, in this way even free will is an illusion. Causality is an illusion, yet what seperates the Absolute from the possibility is the unknown. Once we have an understanding of the unknown that includes the potential for information to come in and out of such freely we obtain a higher state of potential.
This leads into intention, intention leads into manifestation, leading back to the static pattern of resolution that is evolution. Even inner truth boils down to a larger and larger plane of thought, my starting point is always escaping me into the ether of possibility. I don't want to overwhelm anyone who might read my writings, but to truly explain each part of such a small scale of observation and deduction we must get quite intricate. I will begin with defining belief and expressing how I have come to know belief on a quantum scale. As I said there is a great deal behind everything that might follow, so sticking to one subject is allowing for my thought to roam freely.
Certainly inner truth and the realization of the Absolute, or logic that gives structure to fundamentals in this context, is also a good starting point. I would hope that this would be read first so that one doesn't read with feelings of me being arrogant or assuming. Everything I say is true for me, there is experience in my life that has lead to each aspect. When life took on a haste as to what I comprehended I found examples of my ideas in everything that happened. In my art I found shapes and symbols, then I studied these and discovered how number relates to sound and how geometry gives shape to the known universe. When I sought religion for happiness in earlier days, I came to realize how all fact is simply belief, and what becomes popular belief has in history been more of an issue of who controlled the information.
The examples go on endlessly, what I am trying to convey is that I would never assume what is right for me is right for another. We each know what is true for ourselves, and if we question and allow possibility then what we discover is infinite. I seek to prove nothing, I seek only to encourage a new way of seeing or understanding, that one might consider what I say as true for me, and having a basis as fact in my experience. From my observations one can hear and comprehend everything that I say, the weight or importance of such is independant to how monumental such has been to me.
In my writing most of what I say is opinion, and although I use the term logic and Absolute, such can only be so for the individual. Perhaps we each have a seed of understanding buried in the subconscious that need only be instigated to burst into consciousness. In the world around me I see so much insight, there is so much wonderful things to see and understand. Enlightenment already exists within, there is nowhere to go, nothing to do. I do not offer enlightenment, I do not offer Absolution, I only offer my opinion, and do so as truthfully and thoroughly as inspiration dictates.
I hope you find something in my writing that inspires you.

Blessed Be~ Nate